Dear the dearest one...

Dear the dearest one...

Hello, do you mind be friend me? :)

I already know you, even you don't know me.

Although you never know, but I'll check up on you through your account, every single thing.


Dear the dearest one..

Hello, do you mind be friend with me? :)

I searched all about you, but it seems too hard for me

I am sorry

For searching all about you, without you noticing


Dear the dearest one...

Hello, do you mind if I listen to your heart's scream?

Without you knowing, I really have this hope upon my heart

That you'll tell your story before me


Dear the dearest one...

Is it all right for me,

to, fall in love with you?

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I can't say. but...

I write this while I was listening to YUI - I can't say...

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You whisper in my ear

"We can't go on like this."

But there's something good about us,

I know it.

I'm not gonna give up on you,

But I'm not a little girl anymore.

If I could tell you how much I love you,

Could we be happy? I'm not a hero, you know.

Where I live, none of the hip skirts fit me.

But if you were here, I wouldn't care.

I see you, all confused and alone,

I try to look tough and I try not to care.

While deep down in my heart,

I can't stand seeing you like this.

If I could tell you how much I love you,

What would you do? I'm such a selfish jerk.

If I could tell you how much I love you,

Could we be happy? I'm so scared.

If I could tell you how much I love you,

What would you do? Maybe...

Maybe you'd know the truth...

You know...

***

YUI - I Can't Say...

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I certainly know that now, I am not the same anymore.

The gaze,

The feel,

The careness.

Those things towards you.

You know? I am glad.

You’ve found out.

I really am.

But,

Is there a chance for me, to go to you?

It’s floating.

The answer is floating.

I can’t randomly guess.

Is it all right for me to be happy?

Or

Is it all right for me to pretend to be happy?

I know you, a bit.

I don’t know if know me, even a bit.

I know you, not too long.

I can guess that you’re the same.

I have a feel towards you.

I don’t know, if you’ll be the same.

I know we are stranger, and I pretend to be ‘friend’

But my feel, is real.

I know, that’s so fast

But I can’t help it

I know, that you need time

So I, will be patient, and wait :)

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IU - Someday.

언젠간 이 눈물이 멈추길

onjen-gani nunmuri momchugil

언젠간 이 어둠이 걷히고

onjen-gani odumi gothigo

따스한 햇살이 이 눈물을 말려주길

ttaseuhan hessari i nunmureul mallyojugil

지친 내 모습이 조금씩 지겨워지는 걸 느끼면

jichin ne moseubi jogeumssik jikyowojineun gol neukkimyon

다 버리고 싶죠 힘들게 지켜오던 꿈을

da borigo sipjyo himdeulge jikyo-odon kkumeul

가진 것보다는 부족한 것이 너무나도 많은 게

gajin gotbodaneun bujokhan gosi nomunado maneun ge

느껴질 때마다 다리에 힘이 풀려서 나 주저앉죠

neukkyojil ttemada darie himi pullyoso na jujoanjyo

언젠간 이 눈물이 멈추길

onjen-gani nunmuri momchugil

언젠간 이 어둠이 걷히고

onjen-gani odumi gothigo

따스한 햇살이 이 눈물을 말려주길

ttaseuhan hessari i nunmureul mallyojugil

괜찮을 거라고 내 스스로를 위로하며 버티는

gwenchaneul gorago ne seuseuroreul wirohamyo botineun

하루하루가 날 조금씩 두렵게 만들고

haruharuga nal jogeumssik duryopge mandeulgo

나를 믿으라고 말하면서도 믿지 못하는 나는

nareul mideurago malhamyonsodo mitji mothaneun naneun

이제 얼마나 더 오래 버틸 수 있을 지 모르겠어요

ije olmana do ore botil su isseul ji moreugessoyo

기다리면 언젠간 오겠지

gidarimyon onjen-gan ogetji

밤이 길어도 해는 뜨듯이

bami girodo heneun tteudeusi

아픈 내 가슴도 언젠간 다 낫겠지

apeun ne gaseumdo onjen-gan da natgetji

날 이젠 도와주길 하늘이 제발 도와주길

nal ijen dowajugil haneuri jebal dowajugil

나 혼자서만 이겨내기가 점점 더 자신이 없어져요

na honjasoman igyonegiga jomjom do jasini opsojyoyo

언젠간 이 눈물이 멈추길

onjen-gani nunmuri momchugil

언젠간 이 어둠이 걷히고

onjen-gani odumi gothigo

따스한 햇살이 이 눈물을 말려주길

ttaseuhan hessari i nunmureul mallyojugil

기다리면 언젠간 오겠지

gidarimyon onjen-gan ogetji

밤이 길어도 해는 뜨듯이

bami girodo heneun tteudeusi

아픈 내 가슴도 언젠간 다 낫겠지

apeun ne gaseumdo onjen-gan da natgetji

언젠간 x2

onjen-gan x2

English Translation

I hope this tears will stop running someday

Aku harap air mata ini akan berhenti suatu hari

Someday after this darkness clear up

Suatu hari setelah semua kegelapan ini menjadi jelas

I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

Aku harap hangatnya sinar matahari akan menghilangkan air mata ini

When I feel that I’m getting tired of looking me exhausted,

Ketika aku merasakan lelah karena aku terlihat lelah

I want to give all my dreams I’ve kept hard

Aku ingin menyerahkan semua mimpiku yang selama ini tersimpan

Every time I feel that I’m lacking in many things more than I have

Setiap saat aku merasakan bahwa aku kekurangan banyak hal

I lost strength in my legs and drop down

Aku kehilangan kekuatan pada kakiku dan terjatuh

I hope this tears will stop running someday

Aku harap air mata ini akan berhenti mengalir suatu hari

Someday after this darkness clear up

Suatu hari ketika kegelapan ini menjadi jelas

I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

Aku harap hangatnya sinar matahari akan menghilangkan air mata ini

Everyday I hold out comforting myself “it’ll be alright”

Setiap hari aku berkata pada diriku sendiri "Semuanya akan baik-baik saja"

But it makes me afraid little by little

Tetapi itu membuatku takut sedikit demi sedikit

I tell myself to believe in myself, but I don’t

Aku berkata pada diriku untuk percaya, tetapi aku tidak

Now I don’t know how longer I can hold out

Sekarang aku tidak tahu seberapa lama aku akan bertahan

But wait it’ll come

Tetapi aku akan menunggu itu datang

Although the night is long, the sun comes up

Walaupun malam sangat panjang, matahari mulai terbit

Someday my painful heart will get well

Suatu hari hatiku yang tersakiti akan menjadi lebih baik

I hope it helps me now.

Aku harap itu membantuku sekarang

I hope the God will help me

Aku harap Tuhan akan membantuku

I don’t have enough confidence more and more to overcome myself

Aku tdak memiliki cukup percaya diri untuk menaklukan diriku sendiri

I hope this tears will stop running someday

Aku harap air mata ini akan berhenti mengalir suatu hari

Someday after this darkness clear up

Suatu hari ketika kegelapan ini menjadi jelas

I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

Aku harap hangatnya sinar matahari akan menghilangkan air mata ini

But wait it’ll come

Tetapi tunggu, itu akan datang

Although the night is long, the sun comes up

Walaupun malam panjang, matahari mulai terbit

Someday my painful heart will get well

Suatu hari, hatiku yang tersakiti akan menjadi lebih baik

Someday… Someday…

Suatu hari... Suatu hari...

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ながれぼし。

Aku duduk dengan bersandarkan dinding warna putih dan menatap ke atas.

"Itu apa, Ma?"

Aku menunjuk ke arah sesuatu yang berwarna putih di antara warna biru-biru yang mendominasi di sekitarnya.

"Itu awan, sayang."

Aku pun menurunkan tanganku, karena aku sudah mendapatkan jawaban dari pertanyaanku tadi.

Waktu pun terus berlalu.

Aku membuka tirai jendela kamar ku, menatap benda hitam yang mendominasi angkasa.

"Kenapa jadi hitam, Ma? Padahal tadi warnanya biru."

"Mataharinya tertidur, sayang. Sekarang giliran bulan yang menjaga kita semua."

"Matahari menjaga kita pada saat langit berwarna biru."

"Sedangkan bulan menjaga kita pada saat langit berwarna hitam."

Aku pun menggangguk.

Tetapi pandanganku tidak lepas dari benda-benda di langit hitam yang berkelap-kelip.

"Itu apa, Ma?"

"Itu bintang, sayang."

"Kamu lihat benda bulat yang bersinar disampingnya? Tugas bintang adalah mendampingi bulan menjaga kita di malam hari."

"Ah! Bintangnya jatuh, ma!"

"Ah, iya juga. Ayo buat permohonanmu."

Aku pun menatap bintang jatuh itu.

"Semoga mama bisa sama aku, selalu."

Di tengah hiruk pikuk debu dan lautan manusia yang memiliki tujuan yang sama pun, aku masih menatap langit malam, walaupun tidak sesering dulu.

Aku pun masih menatap heningnya malam, walaupun sedetik, ketika aku membuka jendela untuk melihat keadaan malam perantauan kami.

Aku pun masih sempat untuk menerawang di sela-sela waktu senggangku yang kupakai untuk menonton film Korea favoritku, atau ketika aku sedang memasang headphone ku dan menekan tombol play aplikasi musik di notebook-ku.

Berbagai pikiran pun seketika berkelebat jadi satu ketika aku menerawang - entah menatap apa - walaupun hanya beberapa detik.

Berbagai hadiah dari Tuhan, disertai dengan cobaan yang datang mengiringi di belakang.

Terkadang setetes air jatuh dari pelupuk mataku ketika aku mengingat hal-hal yang membuatku sedih.

Dan ketika saat itu muncul, aku pun membuka tirai jendelaku dan menatap langit malam.

Menatap kerlap-kerlip yang menemani bulan.

Aku pun mencoba untuk tidak memohon pada bintang, seperti saat aku kecil dulu.

Aku mencoba menganggap sang bintang sedang menghiburku, dengan kerlap-kerlipnya.

Sudah sedikit terhibur, aku pun memasang headphone yang terletak tepat di samping notebook ku.

Kutuliskan beberapa patah kata dalam status di sebuah jejaring sosial yang kemudian aku tekan tombol backspace

Aku kangen mama.

Tak lama setelah itu, aku pun menuliskan status lain sebagai pengganti.

Aku pun bercengkrama dengan teman-teman dunia maya-ku.

Tak lama, ponselku menjerit.

Kulihat layarnya.

1_Omma

"Halo, Mama?"

"Lagi apa, Nak?"

Dan aku pun menutup notebook ku.

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もしもし, A- さん :)

I don't know for sure how long it takes

But I really sure that this kind of feeling that I feel right now is right

This feeling just heading out towards you

I don't know for sure when this feeling comes out

But I really sure that this kind of feeling that I feel right now is nice

This feeling just bursting out for you

I am not sure if is it right to keep this feeling

We are strangers, we don't know each other

Even though we are stepping down the same floor

I am just watching you passing by

I am not sure if it is nice to keep this feeling

We even don't know how to greet each other

Even though we are using our notebook in the same roof

I am just watching you standing by

I am not in hurry, really.

Can you, be friend with me?

:)

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